For every song a voice will call.
For every hurt, there is laughter.
For every ending, there is ever after.
For every friend, there is a foe.
For every joke, there is a woe.
For every beginning, there is an end.
For everyone there is a friend.

Distant star,
shine so bright down on me,
This dark night show me
how things might be.
Show me, so that I may see.
Give me a sign from above.
Tell me why there is no love.
Show me so that I might know.
Why everything is so?
Help me so that I can tell.
Everyone that all is well.
That everything is okay,
For this and every other day.
Distant star, shine down true,
with your pale light of blue.

When I work, I daydream.
When I play, I forget.
But when I think,
I get depressed.

**you always have to be happy.
if you are sad or upset for some reason or another,
there is something wrong with you.
perfection has to be achieved or you are a bad person.
if you are not perfect you are not loved,
being loved and having someone to love,
is what life is about.....
but first you have to be perfect.
the flawlessness you have to create
to attain everyone's love.
Hide behind the fake plastic smile and cheery image.
Then you will measure up, and be loved.
is there any one person who is perfect?
how can happiness be achieved?

**I love you with all my heart,
I hate that I feel so far apart,
I would love to talk to you all day and all night,
to me you are my white knight,
the need I feel inside for you is so strong,
and I feel that with you I do belong,
I wait in anticipation for you to be my companion,
the delectable taste of you I envision every night and day,
and thinking of it takes my breath away,
when I look at your eyes I feel I can see right through,
into you, and wonder if you feel what I feel too?!
The things I feel are undying and everlasting,
and fills my heart with anguish to
think nothing will ever happen!
I love you with all my heart,
are we really that far apart? 

**All my life I have been told that I was nothing and would amount to that
After a while you start to believe this, and I have.
I have no confidence, and think none is needed,
To get up in front of people is a waste of time...not mine, but theirs
To tell people my opinions or ideas is a waste of energy...not mine but theirs
So I do not speak, in fear of me...but for fear of them, not liking.
I have nothing important to say, and never will...so why am I here?
I have to have an importance somewhere...but where?

**there is pain and hatred in my heart.
these feelings I repress and are never shown
because I do not know how to express them...
the only escape I have...this paper...this pen.
What will happen if these emotions are revealed?

**I go to sleep night after night with this rage inside me.
trembling hands, fighting words crying nights.
the deafening sounds are overwhelming
and drive me insane.
yell, scream, cry.
why?

**I cannot hide these emotions I feel ... I am so confused and wish I could get
this over with. it is a never-ending emotional roller coaster with you. once I
think the ride is over, another tremendous fall lies ahead ... you love
another, and that I understand. but living with it, I cannot bare ... I love you, those
words mean so much to me. it is a terribly over used phrase I know, but
when I say it ... I mean it with all my heart. I love you. there are no other
words to describe it ... I know it is love because of how much pain it causes me
night and day ... I wish and hope with all my heart that this would be over and
done with ... but it never is. why?

I love you because I know you're always there.
There to catch me when I fall,
there to listen when I need you,
there when I feel alone. 

If I were to say I needed you, would you be there?
If I wanted to talk, would you listen?
If I were in trouble, would you help?
If I were hurt, would you care?
If I said I loved you, would you run?

when there's so much beauty in the world,
sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once,
and it's too much,
my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst...
and then I remember to relax,
and stop trying to hold on to it,
and then it flows through me like rain
and I can't feel anything
but gratitude for every single moment
of my stupid little life...

**All I wanted was attention,
so I did something stupid.
No one cares,
so I do it again.
This is a cry for help,
a cry for peace, a cry for something
, which no one hears.
What else is there to do?
Someone help me,
so I don't end up hurting you all
more than I want.
I do not care about myself,
so someone tell me if I am hurting you,
so I can stop.

I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known?
I trace the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over I'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never set foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
But tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone

**You ask why i can't see all the love that surrounds me?
i think that it is because i had always been full of love.
At one point i loved everything, my family, my friends a guy.
My heart was trampled.
And everyone hurt me, my family, my friends the guy.
So, i stopped caring.
And when love was given back to me, i was blind to it,
because it hadn't ever happened before.
That is the only explanation i could conjure.

love, it leaves us mystified and dumbfounded.
it can strengthen us or weaken us -
it's all the roll of the dice,
it's a mystery as to how it will affect
us.
it could be the one to define us
or it could be the one to destroy us
it's that feeling that fills every
fiber of our existence
love is everywhere - you can't escape it
only the weak choose to ignore it.
it's love you can't live with it
and you can't live without it.
~Sarah Kransler~

**What is love?
Is it when all you can think of is that one special person...
the times you've had, and the times to come?
Is it that undeniable feeling that runs through your veins
when he is around?
Is it that butterfly feeling in your stomach every time he
touches you?
Does anyone have an answer?

Life it seems will fade away,
Drifting further everyday.
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else.
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give.
There is nothing more for me,
Need the end to set me free.

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me.
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel.
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony.
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me but now He's gone.

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try.
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say Good-Bye.

Individuality
I may be seen as weird.
I may be seen as difficult.
So I do what I want to do.
It's not my fault if you hate me,
Or disagree with me.
In fact, I don't care what you think about me.
Don't you see?
No matter what you say.
No matter what you do,
That's how its gonna be.
I may be seen as stupid.
I may be seen as rebellious.
So I refuse to blend in with stereotypes.
It's not my fault if you hate me,
Or disagree with me.
Don't you see?
No matter what you say.
No matter what you do,
That's how its gonna be.
Not a weird person,
Nor a difficult person.
Not a stupid person,
Nor a rebel.
Just me,
That's all I want to be,
Me.

**what are these feelings that confuse me?
I have to deal with them everyday,
and they spin me around every which way.
these feelings are wrong, and shouldn't be here.
yet they won't go away, which frightens me ever more.
I am always being told to do what my feelings say,
and not hide my emotions...am I to do this,
or hold them in once again?
confusion is my everyday being,
so I will hold them in,
and not tell anyone.
for I am afraid....
of being happy?
no.
of being laughed at?
maybe.
of being me?
yes.

I don't need a lot of things,
I can get by with nothing.
Of all the blessings life can bring,
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want.
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason,
You're my only truth.

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain.
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate.
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through.
I need you

You're the hope that moves me
To courage again.
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds rage.
And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are.
And I can't turn back now
'Cause you've brought me too far.

So you're standing on a ledge
It looks like you might fall.
So far down
Or maybe you were thinking about jumping.

Now you could have it all
If you learned a little patience.
For though I cannot fly
I'm not content to crawl.

So give me a little credit,
Have in me a little faith.
I want to be with you forever
If tomorrow's not too late.
But it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you say.
But you should never let the sun set on tomorrow
Before the sun rises today.

If I am,
Another waste of everything you dreamed of
I will let you down.
If I am,
Only here to watch you as you suffer
I will let you down.

So you're walking on the edge
And you wait your turn to fall.
But you're so far gone
That you don't see
The hands upheld to catch you.

And you could find the fault
In the heart that you've been handed,
For though you cannot fly
You're not content to crawl.

So you're standing on a ledge
It looks like you might fall.

If I am,
Another waste of everything you dreamed of
I will let you down.
If I am,
Only here to watch you as you suffer
I will let you down.

The answers we find
Are never what we had in mind.
So we make it up as we go along.
You don't talk of dreams
I won't mention tomorrow
We won't make those promises
That we can't keep.

I will never leave you,
I will not let you down.
I will never leave you,
I will not let you down.

Every day I wake up to another day gone by.
Nothing but the open road and the never-ending "why".
Anything can happen, yeah, but nothin' ever does.
I try to change, it's kinda strange, the same as it ever was,
but look at us

How do I deal with you?
How do I deal with me?
When I don't even know myself,
Or what it is you want from me.
How do I deal with us?
How do I know what's real?
When I don't even trust myself,
Or what it is I feel.
And how do I deal?

Every night, in the dark, I lie awake in bed.
How am I supposed to dream, with all the static in my head.
I turn in all directions and I pray for some relief.
What can I do, but feel the weight I'm underneath,
And grit my teeth.

How do I deal with you?
How do I deal with me?
When I don't even know myself,
Or what it is you want from me.
How do I deal with love?
Why do I have to choose?
And everybody's tellin' me,
What the hell I have to do.

And how do I deal with us?
How do I know what's real?
When I don't even trust myself,
Or what it is I feel.
Now how do I deal?

How do I deal with you?
How do I deal with me?
When I don't even know myself,
Or what it is you want from me.
How do I deal with love?
Why do I have to choose?
When everybody's tellin' me,
What the hell I have to do.

How do I deal?
When I don't even trust myself
Or what it is I feel
How do I deal?

I know you well.
you are a part of me.

I know you better than I know myself.
I know you best, better than anyone.
I know you better than I know myself.

You don't judge.
You don't speak.
You can't leave.
You can't hurt me.
You're just here for me.

I know you best,
better than one might think.
I know you better than I know myself.
It's time for me to make a sacrifice.
It's time to die a little.
Give it up.

You are a part of me.

**I walk out my door and see a path of dirt and stone,
which I have never seen before.
Down the path, I see what I think is a forest, maybe a mirage,
maybe not, so I follow. The trees of pine, oak and maple
are all green and leafy due to the summer sun.
The forest floor is clear of bushes, shrubbery, and weeds.
I walk down the forest path and to my right I see a dirt mound.
In the mound of dirt and dust there is a cup.
The cup looks to be brand new, ceramic and brightly white.
I pick up the cup and carry it with me.
Up a little ways there is a key laying on the ground.
It is an old rusty skeleton key about 5 inches long.
I pick this up pocket it and continue on my journey.
As I am walking I see someone walking down the path towards me.
As the person gets near I see this handsome man, a little older than me.
He has brown, nicely cut hair, khaki shorts and a tank top on.
He has the greenest eyes I have ever seen, and is about 6'3, 190 pounds.
He looks content and curious about the world as he walks.
We pass and I keep walking, with a strange feeling
lingering from our brief glance. I come to a fork in the path.
The right looks cheery and traveled upon lots. The
left looks a little darker and overgrown, this is the path I take.
I see a body of water ahead of me, it is a trickling stream
and I easily walk across it. The water is refreshing but not quite cold.
After I get to the bank of the stream I see a cabin. This "home" looks uninhabitable
but I walk in anyway. I open the door and a smell hits me. It's of
a fire and something wonderful cooking above it. To the left is a table.
On the table I see a cup like the on in my hand
and two plates matching the brightly white ceramic of the cups.
Whoever lives here is expecting company. I look behind me cause I feel a presence
that wasn't there before. As I turn I see the man that I
passed on the path. The gentleman has a warmth
about him, and asks if I would like to
stay for a bite to eat, cause it looks like I've been traveling far. Whatever
he is cooking smells delicious so I stay. As we are eating, we talk.
I know I don't know this man, but it feels like we've have
been the best of friends forever. We talk about everything
and nothing and have a great time doing it. I leave before nightfall to get back
before the darkness covers the forest. I leave feeling
content and happy, yet curious about the world.
When I get home the emptiness has left me
for I know I have found a friend
to confide in, and all I need to do
is take a walk through my imagination.

Even if now, we can't be together,
we will be friends, now and forever.
I swear, to you, that I'll be there come what may
and with you, forever I will stay.
When the night is dark and stormy,
you won't have to reach out for me,
cause I will be there, I will come to you.
We all need somebody we can turn to,
someone who will always understand.
So when you feel your heart may be dying
and you need some strength to go on, and keep trying.
I will reach out and take your hand,
I'll be there, and come to you.
When no one can hear you screaming so loud,
I will be there, not just another face in the crowd.
I will reach out my hand, and take yours in mine,
just to stay with you for all time.
When you are on the verge of going crazy and your hearts in pain,
I will be there with you to help you stay sane.
I will touch your heart, and reach for you hand.
Forever next to you, I will stand.
When you're full of fear and your tears start falling,
I will hear your spirit calling, and come to you.
I will never forget your feeling, and warm embrace,
your beautiful eyes and wondrous face.
Maybe someday, maybe never, we'll be together.
But we will be friends forever.
If ever you need a hand to pull you from the darkness,
I will be there, and I'll come to you.

**why does it hurt so much to let you love?
why should I care if you leave?
I should trust you and let you live your life.
You live your life your own way, and I will be on my way.
I can't stand the pain, everyday.
my heart hurts to see you this way.
You cry from the pain, anger and frustration ...
and I can't do anything to stop it.
so I will leave you to your self.
I love you ... goodbye

**Is it so much to ask for someone to be here;
to see me through the dark nights and lonely tears?
I sit in my room all alone and cold
longing for someone, anyone to hold.
I should speak my mind and tell how I feel,
but I can't figure out what's right and what's real.
I'm feeling weak, and on the verge of giving in
but I won't I'll just push it all within.
I wish I could just say goodbye,
but here I will sit and just cry

**I want someone to know me, maybe tell me who I am.
I want you to love me like you did before you knew me.
I've been all alone and my faith has turned to stone ...
but there is something in you that I believe in.
Everything is fine, but I'm lonely all the time;
all I want to do is be there for you and the things you're going through.
I look and see right into your soul.
That's why I love you s, because I know you.
I want you know I am always here to show you who you are,
or who I am.
You want to know how deeply my soul goes?
It goes deeper than bones.
I may live in numbness now, in the background.
As the world spins out of control, I'm here not knowing
and moving oh so slowly.
I've never been so alone, yet I've never been so alive.
The vision of you is mysterious and surrounds my every being.
"Don't let it bring you down, it will all come around."
I try so hard to listen, but I don't hear a word that is spoken.
As time moves on, hearts get betrayed and promises get broken.
With my head in my hands and my heart on the line, I cry
"All I wanted was someone to love me, and see the real me."
My aching heart is bleeding for you to see that.
So, these are the dreams I will dream instead
here in my head with the words that are never said.
I'll sit alone with the barren tears I shed,
and try to catch myself before I fall, when I fall.
For you I'd bleed myself dry, it's true, I'd do it all for you.
But all I ask is for you to love me for who I am,
and all else will fall into place.

**-by me


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