Worth Cannot Be Validated Objectively

I feel like I responded from a very narrow and closed perception. Very defensively and very familiarly. I feel like I let the objective imagery camouflage my perception. I mean I do know that no harm was intended, cannot be intended unless by my allowance, yet I feel in retrospect like I chose to perceive it in such a manner quite deliberately. I feel like I was offering myself information regarding how I cannot create self worth. That it cannot be created because worth is inherent. I seemed to react so predictably, as if I was acting like one is supposed to in a similar situation and I do not usually act so in alignment with mass beliefs.

~Let’s examine the layers of information you have offered yourself. The overall layer, that which permeates and blankets all others, is the noticing of your un-acceptance and lack of trust of self. This imagery you are very well aware of and needs no further explanation. All other layers are aspects of these fundamental issues.

~One layer is the noticing of your automatic responses and your recognizing, in reality, of your choice in it’s actual physical incorporation. In the present moment you allowed yourself to pause and view your choice of incorporating this automatic response and in this you also allowed yourself to view that you had other choices. Within your intent this is imperative to understanding how you, in actuality, create your reality through your perception.

~An example: as you explored your behavior you also, again quite automatically, moved into discounting the way in which you expressed yourself. This automatic response you did not notice, although you do see it now. The automatic responses are not a generalization incorporated into general experiences in seemingly mass events in your personal experience, but are expressions chosen in each now. For clarity, you may notice your automatic response to one situation yet not notice your automatic response to your noticing of an automatic response and so on.

~Another layer of information that you have offered yourself in like manner is that of self worth. This also relates to the above layer as you quite automatically move your perception outside self for validation in this area. In all your societies this is a common action and quite validating of itself. Even within what you term as tribal societies one is rewarded for objective feats and this is valued as proof of worth of the individual. As this shift in consciousness becomes more permanently set in place, this method no longer feeds the need that it once served. You may view this alteration most easily in your exploration of the corporate world. This corporate world was born and has designed it’s success upon competition and this same competition motivating and propelling more and better production. But as each individual competes to outdo others they also are recognizing that the payoff is simply more and better expected of them. What they are is never enough and they must be continuously striving to make more and be better. A sense of self worth is never attained as they view themselves, and perceive they are viewed, in this way. What becomes of this perpetual striving is that one by one individuals begin to drop out. They feel themselves as never worthy and also recognize the link between how much effort they are initiating and the lack of reward in actual fulfillment. They then begin to question the validity of this expression and begin questioning it’s worth. They see so much effort projected and yet feel unhappy and empty inside. This action begins the dissemination of the belief system and returns the focus to oneself. And this is when one begins to recognize that one’s worth is inherent and not determined by what one produces or what one does.

Holy fuck! That just makes so much sense! It’s a very effective, even if a long way around, method.

~Quite efficient. Another layer of your exploration involves that of your alignment with mass beliefs. You have continuously throughout your focus battled between what you perceive as expected of you and what you feel drawn to do within your choices of expressions. Recently you have chosen to take a leap of trust in yourself and express yourself freely in the manner in which you feel drawn. This leap is not done without hesitation though, and within the incorporation of this hesitation you grasp onto the mass belief as a stronghold that you trust. You know the mass belief is perceived as acceptable and in this you feel a measure of safety. The safety is short-lived however as you notice that it is not in alignment with your intent and therefore you are not standing on your own individual solid ground. It’s shaky as it is not basic to your nature. The unfamiliar is frightening with it’s unfamiliarity, but it does not feel shaky, without foundation. This attempting to align with that which you are not basically aligned feels shaky because it is. It is not fundamental to you.

~It matters not the objective production as the intent is expressed subjectively. The objective is simply the play put into production which is not birthed without the creative expression of the author. As an art director simply mimics the intent of the creative team, this is a mirror image within the art director’s choice of expression, and not the source intent of the creators. The source intent was to offer yourself information regarding yourself to more efficiently (not more effectively) and freely create your reality.